Silence ... Introspection

For good or bad or may be this is a phase everyone has with no particular consequences .... I am changing .

Silence is becoming the integral me opposite to what i have been . And I am enjoying silence ... why may be thats a another article!! i wanna see here why that silence actually came.

May be this is becouse there is much noise in and around me . And with every new sound i hear a collison in my processing unit .And that collision is resulting in further noise .So i am curbing a source of sound .. my own vocal cord . I dont wish to add more noise.And the feeling of enoyment is helping me in my implementation .When this noise settles down may be the silence loses its hold.

May be it is becouse currently i have a less faith in the person i see in the mirror.I am not satisfied with him .And thus i don't want to listen to him . Neither i wish to judge him nor vouch for him . I am not allowing him to speak .Atleast not before i reconcile my diffrenced with him and be on the same plateform with him or i gain my lost ground with him.

May be i am in a perceiving mode.Opposite from running away from the noise ,i wish to absorb all the noise and analyze it.Rather than association of every event to my past ,present,future..or broadly to myself , i want to associate it to a anonymous identity which is clearly visible from me and does'nt effect me. And than have a eye of the GOD to understand him.I am in a continous conversation with this anonymous person and may be too busy to speak and break my silence.

May be i want to remain floating ,not giving myself to either yes or no .Becouse some how i am not seeing either yes or no being false.And with every thought my mind want to communicate through my vocal cord , i see a exactly opposite thought clearly visible and not false . And rather than making a half true statement or a equivocal statement ........ I am preferring silence.